Falling out...

Well... I have thought about it for awhile now... but after discussion it with my mom... I have made a decision... of many... it would seem it would not be the right of choice... for other it would seem to be the wrong one...  but I want people to understand... I have my reasons for ending this friendship.

I haven't been happy with person for sometime now... and what they did to me was the final nail on the coffin.

I want everyone to know... I'm the same person in real life as on line. I also want everyone to know that I have trouble expressing my emotions, feelings, and what's on my mind from time to time. I will always give my honest opinion about this, that, and the other; how I want, do, or needed. I will never hurt a friend for sprite or constantly pull out flaws just for satisfaction or gain. I will always respect others' personal stuff, views, opinions, and idea's and will never object to them, unless I ever felt that it was a bad idea. I will never force a friend to do something they do not want to do, I will never guilt trip them and saying it their fault... When I screw up I will apologize for my mistake... I will also forgive when I've cool down about it, and will only hold a grudge if you bullied me till it scarred my mind. I don't care for skin color/ethnics, age, sex, love interest, mental being, body type, what median you are into or hate, or over all personality... If you see me as a friend and respect me for who I am, and not try and change me... then I will respect you for who you are... we are how we are and no one has the right to change you... We as mortals will always have flaws, but those flaws make us who we and at time can be worked around to better our selves, but they still will be there... I've always stated that perfection is a lie and will accept something for what is it instead of should of been, (but only people and not gaming, movies, tv shows, and books.). I do not tolerate being used, treated less then who I am, blame me for other problems, going behind my back and doing something without my permission or knowing. criticizing me for everything I do, going behind my back to read private messages or even using my person info to forge my info for self gain.

I am a very tolerable person and forgive much because that's who I am, and if something gose wrong that I can't get my head around, I go to others for advice... just so I can come up with an idea of what to do...

One of my friends... has tried my patients, I have defended him where others accuse him, I have gave him gifts, I have put of with his shenanigans time and time again, I forgave him where others didn't, I have always treated him with the up most respect... We were like brothers... for sometime now; it felt like our friendship was falling apart, that we both ended up changing that we no longer respect each other. My friend will remain nameless for many reasons, but for people who I've talked to them about it this problem... you all know who I'm talking about... and sadly to say... what we once had all those years ago... it now gone...

The art work of him will have to go, for legal reasons, and if he is used in an rp... I would have to somehow remove him without everyone hating him...

I would like to say I'm sorry for all this... but that's just me... I am a person who hates to let others down and when I do I take it very hard... it is one of my biggest flaw that i have that I want to do right with the people are care for... but when that person turns around and calls you for every flaw that you did like it happen yesterday... then why are we friends in the 1st place... to be honest I can recall many of the things he did to me, but you know what I forgave him and my list is much bigger then his... I forgave him because friends get into stuff a lot and is able to forgive... but when you can no longer forgive... then why are we still friends...

It's over, I'm done... I just want to forget and move on...

I want people to make a choice to know the friends that make them happy or friends that cause more harm then good... I do not believe fake friends, however people grow in there own ways, even when you hit 20 your still growing... If you have a friend that treats you less then who you are, uses you, take advantage of your info or you in general, always criticizing everything you do that good or just don't care about it, always make it about them, or arguing and fighting a lot... then they are not the friend you thought they were... But one of the feeling to feel when you know that your friendship is over is when you feel scared of them, spite for them, stress and head aches, despair, and content.  To end the friendship I've learn that you don't have to be direct with them... and the last thing you want to do is fight just to get away from them... 1st: just don't talk to them, spend less time with them... don't cut off friendships to fast, and don't block them either unless you feel threaten, and they get really aggressive... slowly unfriend them one place at a time, and when they finally understand, then that's it... everyone gose there separate, the end. When they show aggressiveness that when you could cut them lose.. just be careful in public for a time until they finally get it that it's over. After you cut them go spent time with people who care and love you that would protect you. The only thing I can say is... try not to be at the places they are at until sometime has passed... that's it basically... If they ever threaten your life or sake in any way, shape, or form call 911... And when needed always have family and friends around to protect you from harm. It dosen't hurt to get help from others when needed.

This is all I have... I just want to look ahead now to a bright future now... sometimes you have to understand that not all friendships are meant to last regardless of how long it's been... friends will always help you out, tell you on how to approach a problem and give you an answer too, and just have fun. But when there is spite, fighting, mistrust, going behind each others back... then that friendship is either die or dying... but only you have to power to say it's over and stand up to them.

-Allen Ravenix