I've been sad... now I want to bust some head... I'm like a fucking swinging beam. You push me until I'm sad, I come back with rage! The most important thing about me is... DON'T FUCKING MESS WITH ME!!! I'm a nice person, I am no ways perfect, or horrible. I try to do the best I can, and get by day to day. I'm a hard person to anger, but somewhat easy to annoy. If you annoy me, I'm still going to be nice, with a grain of salt. If you anger me, I'm still going to be nice, even though I want to beat the living day lights out of you... but if you mess with me again... You better run!
Now, I have certain pet peeves that rang from minor, to major. I want to talk about one of my major pet peeves: Being punished for something you didn't do. I hate it so fucking much when something bad happens and everyone starts to point fingers at me, why? I don't know, and it really makes my blood boil over it! This is the bullshit that is going over at my work. Someone who dose the same type of work as I do, but he not doing it, or not doing it right, and lies and throws me under the bus just to save his skin. NOW I'M WORKING, TRYING TO BUST MY ASS OFF, MAKING SURE THAT EVERYTHING IS DONE, OR IT'S MY JOB!!! The thing is, My job is not that very demanding, but it can be when someone doesn't dose their share. Pull Trash and Linen, sweep the stair-wells if needed, clean the elevators and vacuum the tracks if needed, sweep and mop the cafeteria, and I try to do all that, and with my Aspurger's and my ability to do this at a certain time to keep my self organised and do what needs to be done and when it needs it. So when you have a bastard making shit on you, it's not fair... why am I being punished for something this guys is doing. where he is not doing his job, I am?! That make me so mad!
It's just not my work I wanted to vent. Something here on DA happen because for unknown reasons. There is a cosplayer *in respect of her I'll leave nameless* on here who dose some nice mermaid cosplays, and for people who know me, I'm really big with mermaids. So I favor a whole bunch of her in mermaid looks (either Misty from pokemon as the misty mermaid, or Arial from the little mermaid), about a few months later while going back through mermaid cosplayers, I found that she had blocked me... What? No reason, no explanation, no warning, just blocked me. I was more dumb founded then angered. What did I do wrong? By me favoring you in a mermaid suit offend you? Did you think I'm getting pleasure of you in a mermaid suit? I will admit this... Some of the art I do like and favor. I will put them on my screen savor picture gallery, but that's it... I don't go and post them anywhere else, nor do I steal and call my own, or even use cosplyer's works to get my rocks off. If I want to see cosplayers get down with the XXX for my pleasure, I go to pornhub, thank you! Back on track; So I looked on her profile, thinking I broke some rule... No rules could be found, so I went to her facebook page and left a message... No response. By that point I started to get pissed off, but then quickly said fuck it, she just lost a fan, why? Because not only did she not get warning, but she (in my mind) overreacted. I didn't do anything wrong to her, but yet I was punished. I want you all to understand that there is a fine line between overreacting and understand, if you fail to understand something your going to hurt yourself in the long run. She thought I was some creep and blocked me, failing to understand that I'm not, yeah I may watch hentai, but I'm not a creep that see woman as some objects. I see them as I would see my self, some one how loves and and enjoy the same things I'm into. Someone I willing to take the bullet for, someone who I will call my sis or bro! The failure was her part and not, for lack of communication, and overreacting making something small into something much bigger then it need it to be!
Overall, is it fair to be judge and punished for stuff you didn't do? If I ever mess up, I will admit it and try and fix the wrong, just say so and I process that nothing is tabuu! However the price you pay for screwing with me will be great! If were cool, then there no problem, but mess with me, I don't care who you are, I will lash back, but twice as hard so you won't forget that you messed up. Own up on your wrong doings don't throw someone else under the bus for your faults, because the truth can be twisted many times as needed, but like a light in the dark it will shine no matter how many times you try and keep it in the dark. Life is no fair, but that doesn't mean we don't have to be fair to each other. Be the better person instead of a child with excuses!